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Wednesday, 29 October 2008 @ 20:42:00

-covers ears-

I don't want to care anymore.
About life.

~~I know I'm selfish, I know I'm foolish, I know I'm CHILDISH.~~

Its not like i have a choice.
sometimes, i wish i wasnt born.
actually, i always felt like it.

Then for other people.
their words are sooooo far away from the truth.

and sometimes i ask.
How did I get here? What did I do?
and then, i turned and realised that i made someone sad/angry/unhappy.
and i ask again.
but then,
no one answered.
i was ignored.
my life IS SOOOO MUCH WORSE THAN YOURS.
worst part.
everyone is not a listening ear-able. if you get my point.
kinda difficult to express here.
just plain pisssed now.
haha
yes. i know pissed but i can still laugh.
its me.

-bows-
THE END

Monday, 27 October 2008 @ 11:39:00

ITS A FACT!

@ 11:05:00

All hail HOLIDAYS.

The holidays are here folks.

YAY!!! closer to kuroii's return!
for those who are mugging for their hated exams....
ALL THE BEST! GOOD LUCK! MEMORISE! STUDY!

Anyhow, my aunt does not look young, ye know?
my cousin's friends are B-L-I-N-D.
haha.

replaying kingdom hearts2 and roxas is as AMAZING and H-O-T.

hohohohoohohoh.
MINE MINE MINE!
all the glitter!
huhuhu

Saturday, 25 October 2008 @ 21:38:00

Goodbye Grandfather.

Today was grandfathers's funeral.
He died yesterday.
dead people look seriously different than when the person was once alive.
its frightening.
he looked like......he was suffering.
oh well.
a lot of crying and what not. what you would expect in a funeral.

a whole DAY.
no sms.
no handphone.
because i purposely left it at home.
it sucks a lot.
at least now i know, i need entertainment to survive.

haha.
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE.
there's changes made ev'rywhere!
ENJOY YOURS!

Friday, 24 October 2008 @ 10:13:00

i wish life could end now.
and yes,
i know im pathetic and stupid and whatever else you called me
dont need to repeat.
im sick of it.

open house dry run at sch in a few hrs time.
ciao

Wednesday, 22 October 2008 @ 15:32:00

22 october 2008

its a fine sunny day at first.
but it rained later anyway.
so today, we went to the high elements at COSTA SANDS.
P5 camp rewind!
haha. some pictures taken.

eating maggi while watching shugo chara.
THE END.

Tuesday, 21 October 2008 @ 14:55:00

sweet. sweet. hate.

cross country is a lovehate situation.
love because it is seriously fun to slack around while others are trying their best.
i mean, its not our fault we just love to have fun.
-grins-
and bitch at the same time.
- shows-the-i-dont-care-what-you-think-of-this-line face -

sweet.
2 problems have appeared.
problem no.1 : THE QUITTING PLAN
-> reporting live from Trouble land.

it would seem that the fish is beginning to get on everyone's nerves, except one of course.

-rolls eyes-

anyway, quiting on the day MY ACCOMPLICE return.

problem no.2: THE BYEBYE PLAN

->reporting live from THE ROOM

actually, there's no plan or this. haha. i just thought that a name was required.

TODAY:

nurul the great picked up flowers during the cross country.
PART 2 happened.
slacked around again.
met alif amsyar in the bus. talked for awhile.

YESTERDAY

slacked.
had a storytelling session which was sorta interesting. -note the use of 'sorta'

THE END

Sunday, 19 October 2008 @ 15:41:00

yesterday, the dgm grp went to JE SWIMMING COMPLEX to get sunburn-ed and tanned.
~~well, im already dark-skinned so it didnt matter to me.-grins-~~
anyway, I had tons of fun.

running here and there.

everyone acting all stupid and hilarious.

haha.

i have to give credits to their swimming costumes too.

-inside joke- -laughs-

+cough-

so after swimming, we went to eat at lucky plaza.

we feasted on ayam penyet at some restaurant which name i have forgotten.

so sorry.kusukusu

then we went to far east plaza which is quite close to lucky plaza.

everyone got something there.

whether it is fried mars bars, coffee, drinks, some accessories.

then we went to wheelock place.

for once, i lead the way a little

-scratches head-

we went to DOLLZ INC and to everyone's shock,

there it was,

stuck to the front of the shop,

THE 2009 D. GRAY-MAN CALENDER.

$29.90.

SAVE UP! SAVE UP!

. . . .

sorry if i sound so -----------------------------------------------------------------.

kusu kusu.

then we went to slack at The Coffee Bean at BORDERS.

well, actually, i went into borders to go find the price of BREAKING DAWN HARDCOVER.

which is a bloody $41 ++.

deadly. at least im not buying it.

kusu kusu

pictures below:

DOUBLE SOLD-OUT!

sorry about this =vomit=, it was all cow's idea

SPERM!!! WHERE"S THE EGG? X) pic-ed this at wheelock place urban male.

a day in religious class............
BOREDOM!
haha
ciao!

Friday, 17 October 2008 @ 15:03:00

another day at home.
life at home is not normal anymore.
i cant wait for tomorrow.
i seriously hope i can go.
:S

Thursday, 16 October 2008 @ 15:12:00

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this killed time.
all hail destroyer of time.

@ 14:32:00

Trouble is brewing...

problems with family.

bega omega T-R-O-U-B-L-E.

-faints-

hushhush for those who know about it.

this might just be the break I need.

to escape.

the -cough- -cough-.

if you think your life sucks,

think again.

i hate school.

it is soooo unfair.

when there IS school, it will be boring and torturous.

when there is NO school, it will be MORE boring and torturous.

sucks a lot.

___________________________________________________________

i didnt ask for this.

its not my fault.

people keep telling me this.

are they right?

___________________________________________________________

i am sorry if i am a pain.
if i destroy your life.
just plain sorry.

Wednesday, 15 October 2008 @ 17:30:00

everyone is like blogging now.

everyone is getting on my nerves.

everyone is S-S-S-S-S-T-U-P-I-D.

BTW,

IM SORRY FOR PULLING YOUR SHIRT whoever-you-are.

i kept laughing and crying yesterday.

because of my dad. yes. welcome back home. hope you leave soon.

school was a usual drag

but,

we did went to the singapore biennale 2008.

it was....FUN.

alot of cool stuff, i think.

i think--> coz some didnt make sense.

im sorry for not being an art student.

not being clever.

SUCKING AT HISTORY.

pffffffffftttttttttttt

haha.

childish.

stained my skirt again.

yay me.

-cries-

im dead.
REVIVE ME

@ 17:21:00

im grounded.
phone confiscated.
what else can go wrong?

oh right....

I FAILED MY BLOODY HISTORY.
tHANK YOU MR USELESS HISTORY TEACHER.

Monday, 13 October 2008 @ 16:37:00

Last friday, my =replace the word 'friends' with something else please=
okay.

so we went to seoul garden at bugis.

SADLY, it was full so we had to wait.

and while waiting we met a few people and hence,

the above photo was taken.

for good times sake.

+evil laugh-

when we finally settled down, and after i ate those delicious beef and chicken, and after changing the circle thingy because a lot was chaotah-ed, we played the choose-a-number game.

ryan, kuroko, rain, cheese and shouji got the correct answers and they were given the opportunity to taste the NEW-AND-IMPROVED-KAORI-FORMULAE.

->yes, it was more than one, a different formula for every two people.

L-UHH-CKY.

ANYWAY,

the most ___________ part was shouji's.

because he.....

he...

PUKED!!!

after he drank 3 cups of the N-A-I-K-Formula, coke/root beer, plain water.

LMAO.

i was waiting for the puking part.

+sorry shouji- +couldnt resist that super funny part-

ANYWAY,

the puke went out like a +thinks- clogged waterfall that was finally released.

it was like so COOOOOL.

THE PUKE is my new idol.

have a nice day people.

@ 15:58:00

--> I always am.

--> Yes. This explains me a lot. I apparently always cause problems.

-->taken last saturday at the whatever-the name-is festival.

--> At the hospital... My grandfather is sick.

Yesterday, my family and i went visiting hospital-ing and raya-ing.
MOST interesting.
Saw lots of INTERESTING stuffs.
Delifrance.
i bought a delicious yet expensive chocolate frappe.
then we went to my AUNTIE's house.
most perfect.
i have always disliked that slut.
made my day when i saw what she was wearing.
+giggles-
after which, we went to my UNCLE's house.
he was perfectly fine.
except that his voice is annoying.
my family's house was next in the list.
we then went to my relative's house.
his house is supposedly haunted.
but apparently, i couldnt find anything scary about the place.
X(

Thursday, 9 October 2008 @ 13:46:00

Lying

okay.
so today started out with a plan that was stuck to me head :
-avoid talking to HER until, well, she talks to me.
This is because, i detest her.
~~go catch some freaking testosterone~~
its not my fault im like this.
i want to get a life but you aint giving it to me.
how do you think i feel?
i know that YOU must have had enjoyed your childhood.
being the ridiculous unhelping person that you are.
oh PUH-lease.
im living my life this way.

You're very good at a game that I don't want to play. So, I'm done here. But you better step away from the mirror long enough to check the damage that will always be right behind you.

guess who said this.
when you find out: its okay. i hate her too.
when you still havent find out : its okay too. i can only say you are slower than me.

i think im going to hell when i die. all because of my wonderful lies i tell others.
sorry ______. NOT. i dont really care.

i wonder how will SHE apologise to HIM.
a sight to see.

-jumps around-

yay! tomorrow is the last paper! MATH PAPER 2. sayonara exams!

@ 01:21:00

it will be so amazing if someone could stay awake.
for me.
just for me.
eww..
NOT.
i aint desperate.
but it sounds nice.
omg.
manipulation.
no.i will resist. this ios why i live. to avoid all of the things i shouldnt in the first place.
that my family and friends are SUPPOSED to be amazing.
that they are not.
seriously.
im living in my personal hell.
welcome back silent crisis,
dejavu.
not that i care.
-bows head-

Wednesday, 8 October 2008 @ 23:16:00

help!
i am weighing my thought about quiting the ~~-ehm-dgm-ehm-~~ group.
last two exams.
yes.
its bloody history.
but hey!
i aint studying.
staying up to chat, blog and gossip.
be sad people coz i have experienced the most s-t-u-p-i-d-est relationship/friendship ever.
includes ____________________________________________________________________________.

~~omg. its 1am~~

and im prepared to fail my history tomorrow because:
1) i didnt study at all -applause-
2)got a lot of stuff on my mind
3) history....................too many dates/ people/ events to remember
4)everyone else is super clever
5)im super stupid
6) i dont pay attention in class

amazing?
i dont think so.
off to my bed.i suppose have a nice...morning.

Tuesday, 7 October 2008 @ 14:22:00

i never write a bloody title for my posts.

My life is so amazing.

its so fun.

and fun.

and fun.....-disappears into darkness-

obviously the above statements are F-A-K-E.

(yes, i know how to spell )

im like a living scapeGOAT.

-bleats or whatever sound it is goats make-

so we're down to 3 subjects.

i get it upper secondary education peeps have ended their exams but NOOOOOOOOOOOOO I still have mine.

dont rub it in yet.

so wait.

patience is the key to success, no?

whatever.

it aint my problem if it is/was a success.

my whole life is a failure.

hence,

i do not have much patience.

but the good thing is that

i keep them all bottled up, right here.

-points to nearby pink dolphin water bottle-

-sigh-

math was a bore.

who knew that such easy stuffs are the ones i DIDNT REMEMBER.

sad right?

hmph.

like anyone could feel what i feel inside.

so anyone up for a night out on HALLOWEEN?

Sunday, 5 October 2008 @ 14:11:00

Butterfly, early summer....

its so foggy lately.
the smell...
indescribable.
-pukes-
it would seem that SOMEONE is beginning to copy me and is denying it.-->i know how it feels like nrl.
anyway, i missed dgm the LAST EPISODE last friday--yes, thank you SOOO much handphone alarm for NOT waking me up.
toomorrow is english and dnt.
-gets ready to fail for english-
this is perfect.
my mindset towards two MOST FASCINATING PEOPLE has changed.
-sad face-
but who cares?
they definitely deserve it.
hmph.
hoho.
i wanna watch more anime....

Friday, 3 October 2008 @ 13:09:00

let me make myself clear :

I TROUBLE/FARAHIN ABSOLUTELY DETEST RELATIONSHIPS INVOLVING A MAN AND A WOMAN.

the end.

dont tempt me to vent my anger for the second time this year.

-laughs evilly-

people are sooo stupid lately.

-screams hysterically-

i feel sick.

=changes subject=

today: END OF GEOGRAPHY PAPER!

perfect eh?

not really.

because the next paper on monday is my hated subject.

UGLY ENGLISH and DNT.

-pukes-

cant concentrate on anyting now.

i believe in failing.

okay.... NOT

i want to pass.

passing is good enough.

and money.

its important.

hmph.

i am hating a lot of people now.

perfect.

i might as well start my isolating plans early.

good night.

@ 03:04:00

OMG!
i just love secondhand serenade!
someone buy me their album and i will worship you!

@ 02:35:00

I apologise

i am unhappy.
obviously.
my mood has been changing to a lot of stupid junk/crappy/old/boring mood.
i do not like it.
sorry people for my active mood swings.
i think im going to visit imh soon.
sorry if i have not been a bloody good friend for you
sorry for being a hypocrite/backstabber 'friend' like everyone always say.
and i agree.
sorry if i ,have in any way, made you jealous.
its all my fault.
no.
this blog is not for you.
its for me.
i want to apologise for being to selfish and stupid.
if worst comes to worst.
i will isolate myself from the world.
it wont be easy.
but i will do my best.
because this is my decision,
i hope that pople will help me fulfill my needs.
i know,
this post is junk and bullshit No 1.
you dont know how important my friends are to me.
i cant have anyone being a sandwich indirectly/directly in my presence.
it hurts okay.
it like somehow its my fault.
its super dumb.
you know,
sometimes i act stupid and act like i dont care...
actually i do.
but there's no one to talk to about anything.
the truth?
i think im just a plain scaredy cat.
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